I had to do something. I’ve put on so much weight and for a year and a half, if not longer, I said I would lose it. Instead, I keep putting on more. So many of my clothes don’t fit and the few that do look terrible because of the weight and fat/inches.
I needed to do something that would make me stay on target; spending even this little bit of money and knowing I’m held accountable each week is a great start. Hopefully, I will get my will power kick started again.
I once lost 40 pounds and looked fantastic. I made myself a promise that I would never return to that person that I was. But I did. It doesn’t matter why, what’s important is that I did this again to myself. I don’t feel good, not in my self-image or in health.
Now, I am climbing back on a path of treating myself better: eating better and working out again. Not being lazy or letting my activities interfere – using them as excuses of why I can’t do it right now. My mom had kids and a husband at home, worked full time, was a Scout leader with a full schedule, and did other things too, but she got on Weight Watchers when I was a kid and lost her weight. If she can do it with all the things in her life, I can too. My dad supported her in it and in later years, I would. It makes a difference; even so, it has to start in your own head.
I have to say that I’ve unofficially joined Weight Watchers. The woman who handles our group at work has put me off for 3 weeks now. At first, she had all her paperwork put away and asked me to come back after the holiday weekend. Today, she was out because of a death in the family and the other person forgot I was joining, so she didn’t have the right paperwork. I insisted on being weighed anyway so I can get going instead of saying “soon, soon, I’ll do something soon….”
I have to lose 25 pounds. And as the first hurdle, someone brought Munchkins to the office. Plus, I have a Christening party on Sunday, a birthday get together next week…
So here I go. Already wavering, but already sticking to it.
“Fasten your seat belts. It’s going to be a bumpy night!”